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Friday, April 01, 2005

p/s : if you're not ready for my ranting below .which is highly hazardous. (don't say i didn't warn you.) jus buzz off . it'll do you good really . =)

*note to self.. ~~i'm non-existant.of no existance.and will never be of any existance to you guys .anymore.i'm gonna be gone.for good.ta.~~

okay. i'm up til the state where i don't even bother to explain myself anymore. sighs. oh well.
at least i still have my boyfriendd. =)
yet i still don't understand the " she has a boyfriend so lets just leave her alone."
i'm at a point as such i think cos i'm no longer what i was.
pun intended. those close enough should know what i mean.
it might sound offensive? but hey. that's like the reality of the situation that's being smashed right into my face.. so yeah. =)
it just seems that no matter how hard i try. it makes no diff. so. why do i even bother right?
*nods. yeah. i shouldn't. trust me. i'll learn how to not bother. =)

oh. good news number onee . =) i got into nafa . =D yay?
haas . yeah .
good news number twoo . next month will be our one year anni . =D !
yay! =D

i've never exactly been the kind of person who isolates herself when attached.
but it seems that way now ain't it?
=) i'm not saying i'm not happy with it.
i am.
but it sucks cos.
people made things this way.
does this sound so wrong?
i think it does.
note to boyflenn : don't worry. i'll explain . =)

in fact. i'm so used to staying at home . 90% of the time. that i don't even get my "i-wanna-go-out" moods often anymore.
ha. the irony. when i CAN actually go out. i don't want to. *shakes head.
i'm so very thankful for kinda central . ha . i wouldn't have survived with its endless cartoons and kids programmes seriously.
and of cos. my boyfriend. for coming down almost everyday. and going home so late all the time. having no time for his other friends. and even. for his studies. and (almost) becoming a loner like me. =| all cos this girlfriend of his doesn't really enjoy solitude that much. but the beings around her decided to leave her alone. =) no pun intended. :)

i'm gonna be starting school in july. =) oh wells. i can't wait. i think i've got too much time on my hands that i think too much. especially when i jump around blogs. certain people can get so fake. it makes me wanna hurll. buhh. i mean. come on. why act so nice. like. oh! i miss you can! when they see you. but the actual fact is that. they're prolly thinking. ohman. why must i bump into HER of all people!? ha. i've warned you bout the dangers before you started reading this aiight. =)

i love sundays. =) never used to love them so much. but yeah. sunday's becoming .. different. i mean. um. yeah. hahas. lets see the pros. and cons. pros first of cos. =)
pros !
there's GOD . =D God rocks. =D
and.
yf. =D they rule.
the normal people. =D loads of funn !!
i get to have fun OUTSIDE. (unlike the rest of my days in the week)
i BELONG. (at least i think so.)
i get to dump my "i'm so left out" concept in one corner. (ha.i TRY to.)
and just.
thoroughly have a good time.(which is uber rare these days.)

cons?
there's only one.
when my mum goes nuts before and on the way to church. =)

haas. so tell me. how could i possibly not love sundays ? =D

blahs. i'm sick of everything. really. sick. BAHH. i'm outta here.

;elysium.
12:25:00 AM